Adulting crisis

Assalamualaikum. Just a short post to commemorate Muna's advice to me. To those yang tak tahu, aku baru habis internship 12 Januari yang lalu and sejujurnya, I've been panicking over what jobs to do since Oct 2023. Aku dah mass apply kerja, dah go to interviews, but still no replies. I guess, it kinda messed up my mind. Mula rasa iri hati tengok kawan yang dah dapat kerja, mula rasa bad feelings bila kawan dah ada achievement tinggi sikit dari aku. Been feeling like this sejak internship hunting pun sebenarnya tapi this time dia macam intensified. 

So aku bagitau Muna about this. One thing she said is this:

Terus rasa nak menangis huwaaaa. Betullah tu, aku rushing nak buat apa. Timeline aku dah kira laju ni ha habis degree umur 23. Apa lagi aku nak, kan? Slow slow ah. Was so thankful for her words, that I decided untuk letak sini. One day, if I ever feel macam hidup aku stagnant, I will go back to read this again.

Hidup ni is all based on pilihan. Kau yang buat keputusan nak stay kat tara tu je ke, atau slowly improve hidup kau with the little things in your life? Tak perlu pun nak compete dengan orang lain. It's just you versus you.

Super glad I could get this off my chest hahaha. Sampai sini je la ek, bye bye! 

Salam Positif 3.0

 

Assalamualaikum. Aight, at this point we all know the drill hahaha 😂. The symptoms, the disbelief and lastly, the positive test result. Tak tau dah nak kecek apa, just purely dissapointed dengan my immune system HAHAHA. The symptoms sumpah macam my usual allergic reaction so aku tak kisah sangat when it first happened (10/1), and then I woke up at 11/1 with a battered body. Rasa macam kene pijak berjemaah, my nose has been clogged since last night, my throat is super itchy and sore. Did the test and confirmed positive untuk kali ketiga.

Padahal, ada lagi 2 hari nak habis intern weh. Literally Friday is my last day and yet, here I am. Have to be quarantined for 5 days, and cancel plan nak lepak dengan Muna. Nasib baik duit hotel dia boleh refund. Kalau tak, hm serba salah aku weh. Woke up at 3.00 am tadi sebab cold sweats, and tak boleh tidur semula so here we are, another post of commemoration. 

To be honest, it wasn't that bad. Cumanya, aku rasa bosan. Time ni la craving nak makan junkfood, nak air manis, nak itu nak ini. Nasib baik mak pak aku layan lagi kalau setakat nak makan burger. Oh, nasib baik jugak aku still boleh rasa. Alhamdulillah 😭.

Okay la tu je kot, nak sambung buat poster intern. Bye!

2024 is Here!

Assalamualaikum semua~ Niat nak buat a very short new year wish sebab aku curi masa kerja ni nak bukak blog haha tapi setelah membaca kembali post new year 2023, buatkan aku terfikir sejenak. Rupanya, my 2022 kinda sucks. And I hate to admit that part of my 2023, sucks too. Mungkin kerana tekanan belajar, atau tekanan nak masuk dunia dewasa ni. It has been rough these past two years, but hey kitonyo kan user nana. Kebal makian di dunia land of dawn mahupun di dunia nyata. Sumpah takde kaitan kan HAHA.

Kalau tengok dari sisi lain, sebenarnya banyak je benda best tahun 2023. Lost a friend, gain few ones back. Finished my final year project despite rasa lost the whole time. Started my intern with monthly allowance while living at home and makan tidur percuma. My sister bought her first car and now we finally have our own transport to explore JB. Alhamdulillah setakat 3 bulan intern, dah boleh bagi duit belanja sikit kat mama, duit minyak kat akak, duit makan kat adik & Adam. Forever grateful with what I have now.

Papehal pun, hidup harus diteruskan. Untuk saya dan anda semua, semoga urusan kita dipermudahkan pada tahun ini. 

Selamat tahun baru!