I started the year with a social media cleanse. Deactivated most of my accounts because the constant comparison was really getting to me, and my mental health wasn’t in the best place back then. Stepping away turned out to be one of the best decisions I made. I’m slowly back on some platforms now, but with better boundaries and a much healthier mindset.
Mid-January, the teacher posting result came out around 10 pm, and honestly—shock is an understatement. I got a school super close to my house, like 10-mins kinda close. Bak kata orang, berlarilah ke mana pun… jika kau milikku, pasti kau milikku (pls tell me you get the TikTok reference or I’ll sound dumb...). Also learnt that my mom’s doa is truly undefeated.
Hail the Queen 👑.
January also marked a big milestone in my driving journey. That random burst of courage to drive alone to Econsave somehow convinced my parents to let me drive to school every day. Still very much dependent on Waze, but hey—progress is progress okay. 2025 me would never believe I’m now driving my mom’s Exora everywhere.
I was assigned to teach Year 1 English, and honestly, I lose my mind every single day. Gen Alpha kids are really built different. On top of that, I’m also the guru pembantu for a teacher on maternity leave, which basically means I’m the stand-in class teacher until April 2026. This happened in my first week, by the way. With my credentials still not registered, admin duties have been pretty tough. The class is also still togel with zero decorations. Haih…
By my second week, I slowly eased into the routine. I started driving earlier to reduce my anxiety, explored places around the school, and since I don’t really have a yapping friend yet, I end up recording LOTS of car videos just talking to myself... Big thanks to Muna and Izzah for always being my go-to listeners outside school hours—I LOVE YOU GUYS FOR THAT <3
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| Me, talking to myself because I don't have a yapping friend in my workplace yet... |
The teachers here are super kind though, very mak-mak vibes. Always asking, “Dah makan ke belum?”. Some of my former teachers are here too, now my colleagues. Life really comes full circle. I also teach PJPK, and starting next week, I’ll be teaching Kesenian as well. The learning curve in school is very steep okay... I had to consult another PJPK teacher on how to write and execute the lesson plan for PJ because it is totally different from English's LP ðŸ˜
There are days I feel like a total failure, but life keeps on sending me unexpected blessings. It is in my 2026 resolution to try counting my biggest wins every day so I didn't let my insecurity gets to my head haha. Rasa macam banyak benda jadi in January, but every opportunity feels like a redirection.
Thank you Allah for all the blessings. Doakan saya dapat angkut kereta sendiri ya—penatlah drive Exora, minyak macam air T_T #adulthingshi
Okay sampai situ je, bye bye jumpa lagi kalau rajin!
